How do we know what real trust is. Everyone is always searching for it, everyone is always asking for it... but not many people are willing to give it. I'm not even completely sure that most people these days would recognise true trust if they had it, which doesn't exactly make it easier to be found.
I've always thought that trust was one of the most important values in any sort of relationship with people, and I always thought that I was someone who did put trust in others. I was proud of the fact that I was strong enough to put myself out there and make myself vulnerable in order to gain someones' trust in return. But now that I think about it or reflect on it... I'm a bit ashamed. Because I now realise I'm completely wrong.
I thought that I gave out my trust easily and often... but when I clear that wishful thinking I realise, I don't at all. In fact i'm ashamed at the little trust I give people. I wanted to know why people don't trust each other these days, and then I realised, its the same reason I've been scarce with it for such a long time. Because they're scared. People are worried that as soon as they give something that makes them vulnerable, that it will be used against them. I know that I'm the same, but sometimes I feel like most of the times that I have put trust in people... I do get hurt. I finally build up the courage to make myself vulnerable to someone, but then they turn around wound me. I'm terrible at trusting people because I feel like there's not many people I can trust. Of course there are the few exceptions to this as always, but people these days just don't understand what loyalty is. Or privacy, or the fact that sometimes their actions can actually affect other people too. They get too caught up in gossip, or in other people's problems, and don't realise their actions can be hurtful until its too late. Society these days just makes people only think of themselves.
